Hiiii!! I had so much fun yesterday! I’ve been wanting to hang out the three of us for awhile so I’m really glad we got to!!! Pictures are adorable!! I actually really like both the ones I’m in which is rare. I also like that the one of me is slightly blurrier than the others, maintaining my cryptid status Macey’s cats are named ginger and wolfy, idk if she ever told you their names though? She probably told you Ginger’s In conclusion, the three of us need to hangout more
hello mags :) i, too, have been wanting to hang out w you two for a long time! i'm glad you like both the photos you're in. i think they're super cute—and, of course, i'm thankful the cryptid status is being upheld. she did tell me their names...once. but as of replying, i've got them down, so don't worry. and, also, since writing, we *have* hung out more! wow...banger. i think it's fun. and nice. i used to feel like it was the end of the world. it kind of was, though. i didn't mean tooooo...? breakdown. like i did. but it happens. whatever. i'm happy i told you anyway. normally, i would've lied to your faces about it, and likely made you both trust me less. so. i'm glad i got over that and just told you. i hope i didn't guilt trip Macey, though. she's truly my goat...
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“Romance” doesn’t really make sense to me that much. It just feels like another binary of the typical formula of society. If that makes sense. Like. There are a specific set of rules and expectations around a “romantic” relationship that just dont make sense to me. Or like. They make sense, but I dont want them. Well I do, hypothetically and in the made up world in my head, but in practice, in reality, I dont. Like you said, every relationship is different, and for me, assigning a relationship the “romantic relationship” title changes it. It changes the expectation of it, and it changes the perception of it into something it wasn't before. And that can be good! If thats what you want! I guess! but idk Romance just feels very heteronormative if thats the right word. It just feels like the expected life path of society that isnt actually real. Like, woman gets married to man, has kids, and does chores forever type thing. For me, trying to be in a romantic relationship feels like trying to play a character. Im trying to be someones girlfriend, instead of Me. And that sucks, cause like. I would like to have that kind of relationship in my life, but its just not something that Want. Its not something that I feel comfortable having. And like. Maybe that will change, but I doubt it. But also! Do I actually want that specific idea of a relationship? Or have I just been told my whole life that I want it? And that it is desirable and what everyone should want. Idk probably. I’ve started the process of identifying as aroace again so it’ll probably take me a bit to feel totally comfortable with it again. But hey! Thats what life is for or something Idk I guess this is all a touch unrelated to your original post, it just got me thinking about my own experiences with “romance”
hiii mags! i agree! obviously, sort of. i feel kind of bad though. i think at one point i felt the same way you describe —as though “romance”, or the things that apparently come with it, to be experienced, just suck. because the label does change things. and thats right, i think. but i personally—as mentioned—have a relationship that is almost identical to a romantic one. me and him often, even, like. low key agree that it MAY BE romantic. we just dont really like the word or…the idea of what comes with it, so…why be romantic at all. we basically just mutually agree to be the way we prefer. and frankly, if it’s not a weird sort of thing to hope for, i do hope you find yourself in that place some day. if you truly, in any capacity, want to experience something like “romance” no matter titles or labels or associations…there IS someone out there who will understand that. and it won’t feel daunting or like you’re being pressured. it will feeeelll…collaborative, and easy. just really…easy. and simple. like, in a kind way…the way you feel is just like. well i think its like the top layer. of experiencing stuff like that. i hope that it stops feeling daunting is all. because you…not you, but anyone, finds themselves truly wanting something and like…enjoying their relationship with someone, it feels very natural. and its nice. because it really CAN be without any constructs forced on you. you can just ‘be’!!! it’s true. i guess i sort of mean to say that there is in fact a big difference than trying to be romantic and feeling ways that others call romantic, then deciding for yourself—and TOGETHER—how you feel about it. (sort of like……how you…….did. correct me if i’m wrong. SHOUTOUT MACEY!) (me too, on the bit about “trying to be in a romantic relationship.” funny how i got around it by just…not calling it that and approaching it like a friendship LOL. everyone is different…) and of course its related to my post!!! it means a lot to like, hear what how you feel about the topic. thats why i write, mostly..i just dont say it. i just love getting people to think andddd its super honourable to get to hear those thoughts. like, sometimes, it’s like: “wow! cuz u never thought of this before, i’m the first one hearing it! i did that! and we’re relating or contrasting each other as people! aweeesomeee!!!!” so thank you for writing. i’d of course love to hear your thoughts, related or not. if you thought of it after reading, it must be related somehow, right? haha.
Real! Real!! I LOVE associating music with my characters so much, but its even more fun when its like. A popular song that other people listen to. Cause then its like my secret Ill hear a song irl or be listening to it with friends and they dont know that this is actually my guy actually Like “The one that got away” by Katy Perry? Bill Cipher. “Lay all your love on me” by ABBA? The Lamb. “Please Please Please” by Sabrina Carpenter” hmm I think you mean Billford actually its great and fun and gets me to listen to music I wouldnt usually listen to. So! Win! More music!
haha that's really nice. i think the more i start to listen to popular music, the more that'll happen to me. you're so right about the "gets me to listen to music i wouldn't usually listen to" part! it's genuinely helping me expand my taste, and whatnot. more music is always a win, so true! :)
Hi hello, its me I’m here “It used to stress me out to the point I couldn’t enjoy myself at any point of my days. they were spent anxiety riddled and Useless. what a lovely change this is. To be able to live properly. Sort of hope filled haha” Very good to hear!!! I am glad you are able to enjoy life cause life is so so wonderful. I totally get you though, likely not to same extent but I used to be very very Stressed about skipping classes or not getting work done on time or being late to class, etc. etc. but this year I’ve realized that it actualy Doesnt Matter and I have learned to not give as many gafs and its so wonderful. I get to spend time with people I actually like and stuff and its great and awesome! I’m glad you’re able to experience that too because people can be great! And make life so much more enjoyable. Something something humans are social creatures. Whatever School is not that serious, life will persist. I do think its really dumb how much schoolwork we are given though and how we’re expected to have literally no free time, but thats a rant for another time
HELLO MAGS! thank you for writing so much. i'm blushinggg!! it is you, hi! frankly, i don't think "extent" matters, here! it's a way of life that many have to experience, you know? i have to wonder if this is the time (this, being our age and grade), that people learn to live this way. freely and shit! life WILL persist, you're so right. i think of what got me to this point. a lot of it was...hearing about how adults feel, i think. adults who were like us, and felt the way we do. seeing them say "you're right, it all really doesn't matter. you'll end up somewhere, and school is such a small part of that... just commit to what you want to." meant a lot to me, i think. i for sure agree that our school is giving us far too much work as well. that's why i don't care, LOL! all that matters is the grade, and what i'm learning. (shoutout mrs. stiles, mr. peters, and mrs. rameriez for actually teaching me things!) i look forward for when the time for that rant comes :) thank you again for putting the time into writing this. it means a lot to me. truthfully! (n_n//)